Deeper

In a time of trial there were moments when this lake was a great comfort to me. It's not the prettiest lake, but I could reach it in less than ten minutes. I could get away and peace seemed to breathe through me. I know it was a gift from God for that season, He knew I needed something tangible. Sometimes I would want to submerge myself in that lake. I wanted in it and to feel it all around me. The sober reality is that feeling of being submerged and surrounded could only last as long as I could hold my breath.

Do you know you can live that way with Jesus? I haven't mastered it. I've had times of feeling "intimately intoxicated," as Vicky Bentley aptly put it, with the love and presence of God. There can be times when one child is having a tantrum on the floor, supper is trying to be cooked, and other children are asking seemingly irrelevant questions and I'm swept away by the love of God that makes me feel more beautiful than anything on earth.

Then there are times like the Shulamite in Song of Solomon when I say "I have taken off my robe; How can I put it on again? I have washed my feet; How can I defile them?" In other words, not now. And then I miss out.

I've decided that the only way to live godly is to be filled with the Holy Spirit every day and strive to go deeper in this relationship with Jesus, God, and the Holy Spirit. The second verse, and first words of the song in Song of Solomon say "Let him kiss me with the kisses of his mouth— For your love is better than wine." God's love has been better than wine to me. And, if you want more of that come with me on this journey.